Lets just be frank, I am thoroughly embarrassed at how long it’s been since I’ve posted to my blog. It began with me just wanting to take the time to get settled in the temporary house while ours was being built, then I found myself just wanting to keep working through homework when I had the time so I could put my MBA behind me, then I found things with the new house picking up and I was running back and forth making decisions and wrapping up the build, then we had to pack, then we had to move, then…. Then the real fun began.
We moved in and have had a whole slew of issues with our new home. So much so that the positive bobble head that I am has become so incredibly stressed and frustrated it’s been very hard to see the positives lately. I always know my place, I know things can always be worse but damn we’ve had some bad luck as of late. Let’s say all of our furniture arrived from PODS covered in mice shit and piss and we had one make it into the house, the furnace stopped working within 4 days of moving in, and the master bath toilet leaked not once but twice through our floor and into our basement. Yes, all of this in our brand new house and all within the first 2 ½ weeks of moving in.
I had decided that I would take some time off from working out in October. I always take about a month off during December but felt that I needed to just take a break sooner this year and once we got moved in, in December, I would just start back up. Well, here it is almost January and I haven’t worked out in almost 2 months?!!! Who is this person? Well I understand where some of my negativity is coming from. When you aren’t in your normal habits you become a different person. I also haven’t had a workout AREA in almost a year. That was really beginning to get to me. I always loved the space designated JUST for workouts and nothing ever felt right after we left our first home. Don’t think for a second that I won’t get back at it, it’s part of who I am. It’s just that things have not gone as planned and I have honestly put myself on the back burner. That aint me, momma knows better than this.
Additionally, a couple weeks ago they found that my thyroid was enlarged and since then I have had an ultrasound done, seen an ENT, and an endocrinologist. I have to have a biopsy done to make sure it’s not more serious. Yeah, just a teensy bit stressed.
Oh but don’t cry for me ol faithful blog readers, I am fine. I am a strong person and I have this. Just feeling the need to whine a little bit because it’s my blog and I can cry if I want to.
I will be getting better and I will be posting more. This has been something I’ve always wanted to do, keyword is I and ME. I have to get back to the handful of things that make me feel strong, smart and beautiful. I don’t necessarily believe in NY resolutions but this is my goal for 2016, get back to being me. So here’s to the new year, whatever it may bring.
Carpe the Hell Out of Your Diem